Well i'm back to normal~ Yesterday night before i slept, i had been seriously thinking why was i reacting so BIG to yesterday's situation. Well i find that deep down in my heart, i find that i realli love her and wan her back, and on the other hand, i cant let the past go cos i in the first place, i nvr wanted to let her go. heh oh well, i feel that i need to be haf an open heart and not let myself to cling onto the past. Now, what i realli wan her to haf is her happiness in life, thats all. Well enough of her~ sheesh lolx. Today i went skool as usual, draggin myself like the zombies in resident evil. 8am classes is a pain in the ass man. anyways, today at polaris, i was the oni guy there le.. so sadz, all my other YMDs nvr turn up. But its ok i had a great conversation wif the gals. After that i had my NE presentation, gosh at last its over. Stupid NYP wans all students to study on history of singh-ka-po~ even foreign students are not excused frm this kuku module. Its as if they go for this module to be brain washed lolx. Anyways, my grp presented on history of india. haiz if u were there to listen to the presentation, u would snooze after 10mins cos i made the presentation slides to be boring on purpose. Anyways this module is not graded, its just an extra module everyone has to take. Well at last its over. After that, i still have a 2 hours lecture, oh my gosh, i was almost dead shag after the presentation, but cant pon the lecture cos its the last lecture, and my lecturer is going to give us the study guide for examz. haiz, during lesson me and rachel started to bitch about our previous klazmates. Reason, simple, both of us find that after the grp of 8 that me and rachel mostly hang out wif, got spilt up into our spelizations, we hardly got in contact. For me, i got sick of their man man lai attitude everytime they wan to meet up to go jalan jalan or some other stuff. Always taking their own sweet time to tink where to go and bla bla bla. Everytime i say why not we decide and walk at the same time? They dun wanna move WTH! And recently, i find tat they are always waiting for new friends and chuan's frens whenever they haf outings. I'm not being anti-social or wat, but i just dun find the click with their new friends. We dun haf a common topic. The crap they always tok are always lame and cold. The kind of attitude they always gif me especially for the guys, is when u have a ger fren, ur life will be great. What kind of lame shit is this~ argh And nowadays the presents they buy for b'days is getting more more freakin EXPENSIVE! Heres the list, and one present i cant remember is to who la around 90 over bucks. They bought chuan a shirt and pants total of 98 bucks, A shoe for weiqi for 106 bucks, a 2 polo T and pants (i tink) also around 90 over bucks. All the presents listed haf a total of 12 pple sharing. And each person need to pay around 8 to 9 bucks each. And all of them is within a month plus oni! The prices of these presents are like buying for someone who is having his 21st b'day! All of them is around 20 yrs old oni. So when they become 21 tink can buy a present tat cost around 200 to 300 bucks liao lo! kaoz. And best is when i told them they should aim around 60 to 70 bucks kind of present, they told as long as the present is less then 10 bucks can liao lo. Diaoz. I am not being thrifty on money or wat but i'm just being practical here~ Aiya dunno them la, for me and rachel we feel that we are trying to haf this great frenship to stay on but they dun seem to put the same effort in maintaining it as well.. So FUCK CARE! Then today i had my Young Lion Duty at HQ doing traffic duty. First time in traffic duty man, a bit kan chiong le. Well everything went fine today. Learn quite a lot today! Then nxt time i can blck the traffic and taking the big light sabre thingy hee. Damn i bitch a lot today le lolx. I tink i might got ben's complaining behavior :P Oops lolx. But complaining good la. Sometime dishing out some things u haf been dieing to spit something out frm ur heart. haa. Well my study week starts tomolo, I'm going to pia my studies liao. Starting from tomolo! Chiong during the night wee hours until early morning. Cos i oni can study in the night, telling me to study in the afternoon or morning would be a waste of time for me. I have around 15 days to study 4 modules. Argh theories. They are such a pain. Time to relag for now, CHIONG tomolo. ok folks, i'm out~ CIAOZ