bad day... realli bad day... my current work is getting to me, many things happen, and today, to make things worse, i jus made an unnecessary argument wif someone im very close wif... again it started wif me, oni to flare up when things seem to come together like a whirlpool suckin me. When will i change... haiz when will i change this attitude of mine... its getting from bad to worse... dropping tears of sadness in both my heart and my physical appearance... askin myself why did i make it into such a big woohaa... not enough wisdom, not enough daimoku, having low life condition... i dunno... oni to regret when things happen... is this always the case... hate it when this happen... oni to tink back if only i did not say this or i should not haf done tat... only to say wats in my mind without tinking twice... its like breaking a glas vase and trying to patch it up, but cracks still remains... sad... very sad... regretful for wat i;ve done, when this person has always tot of me... haf i ever tot for this person... haiz... if u're reading this, millions of apologies. Should haf been more sensitive and should not haf flare at u like tat. really really sorry.. please forgive me...

3 cheers and 3 cheers and 3 cheers to SSA! Weeeee, 2day is definitely a victorious day! NDP victory! Went to yishun 2day, to take some pics for SSA publication cos some of the members were there to perform. Some peeps frm the samba dance and HQ2 YWD dance were there. Twins were there early, so... had the chance to see them, and err shake their hands 2. wahaha, im not a fan of twins, and i dun listen to their songs. But anyways, they were cute. and i tink after reading this, some peeps might get jealous hehz. United groovers were there, saw alfred and 4 other guys frm UG, their asked to be backdrop dancers for a m'sian RnB/Hip Hop singer. The fireworks at yishun was cool! nvr had such a close encounter wif fireworks in my life.. haa. Maple maple maple. The game not too bad.. Quite kool, but leveling is a pain. Anyways tml will be another photoshoot assignment, this time, NESTOR TORRES! weee hes back! Hope to get great fotos tml~

its been a super duber long time since i last blogged. busy wif work, sick of it, feel like quitting but cant, busy wif gakkai, had fun, the feeling of being victorious, appreciate all the pple that haf encouraged me, helped me, and pushing me up when im feelin down. In the current phase of life b4 i enlist for army, i truly feel joy, won victories, and gone thru some of the most stressful times of my life. YCF, a great success for our HQ1 show! The show was great, we started to become more united as the last performance came nearer. Got to know more frens, got to see more members grow. Words cant express how i felt tat day. NDP, i had nvr been very close wif my parents, i urge myself to change. But old habits are hard to get rid. but, an opportunity came, its NDP. my parents joined NDP together for the first time and i guess it might be also their last time 2. Anyways, i tried to go down and support them when their trainings were at padang. From then, i started to haf better relationship wif my parents. And today, is National Day, its their BIG DAY! Tat includes Ben too cos hes a trainer in this year's NDP, . Its their big day! All the best for them! Nostalgia, i was being asked to choreograph dance steps for this oldies concert. Its a concert held by SSA, a friendship concert for the adult division members and new friends wif OLDIES as their theme. When i was asked, i oni had around 2 weeks to tink abt whether to take up the role and start choreographing. I was stressed out! I kept on thinking not enough time enough time. then an inspiration came, tat inspiration came frm watch this old movie by john trolvolta, GREASE. But still i did not know where to start frm. So i asked Daniel, frm our dance grp urban passion, to gif me some ideas. And he suggested lindy hop. At first i was ok with the basic steps. Quite easy. But again, i was scared tat pple cant commit, then we dun haf to practice. I was realli down. both leya and dan were trying to comfort me that if i find it too stressful, we can call it of. but in my heart, if i were to let it go, i wun feel good either. Called ben, he kinda woke me up. And i started to choreograph the steps on tat day itself. We had 5 couples for this dance. But last minute, one of the gals has some problems and backed out, started to panick again. Its 3 days to the performance and we still cant find a replacement! But yaya and beckie assured me they will definitely find a replacement. And truly they did, her name's Cynthia aka Ah Cyn lol. Shes frm yaya and fren's dance grp called urbanation. Anyways, i gave her a crash course on friday. And shes able to absorb 60% of it. Realli salute her! On the performance day, our dance stage was small. VERY SMALL! they totally forgot abt us when their arranging the instruments. But in the end, we had to deal wif wat we're given. In the end, the performance turn out great! We had lots of fun, being back drop dancers impromtu! A truly great nite of fun and laughter! Took lots of pics too. Will share wif u guys nxt time. I realli thank all the dancers tat came for practice everyday! YES EVERYDAY! not a single one missed unless they haf other more impt things on! Even though some are down wif flu or cough, they came! Truly touched by them! An ugly caterpillar wraps itself up, and going thru a struggle within itself b4 it emerges out as a beautiful butterfly. Its amazing how much potential one person can haf, the potential to go far! Tinking how bad you are or how much time is left, if jus barriers hindering your growth and your potential from showing! Once these barriers are broken, one can truly show how amazing and beautiful yu can be. Its jus like a caterpillar, The caterpillar is the barrier. it wraps itself up and struggles within itself to change, this process is when u struggle thru yourself to change for the better, in the process of breaking the barriers hindering u. When u break the barriers, u will turn out to shine more and become very beautiful jus like a butterfly. One's happiness can be created by one's own hands.